You say I'm always happy, and that I'm good at what I do, but what you'll never realize is, I'm a damn good actress too

I am a good actress , I think ...
I will keep everything until once I will explode..
You should know that I am a person who will be test with my own weakness...
Seriously I feel I cannot bear this burden anymore...
I know whats its like to want to die ...
I am struggling...